- Jun 10, 2005
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Grr...this girl was like the love of my life. I've had 4 girlfriends of over a year and a half, and when I was with this one i knew I wanted to spend the rest of my days with her. We were immensely happy. And then she went off the deep end and became a born again, with goals of "walking in the footsteps of Jesus" and "living a crazy life that makes no sense but is the path God has for me" and said she needed to rescue people and help the world....on her own.
So she left me, hurt me (by trying to help people, lol), and really...it sucked.
That was six weeks ago. I've still been sad, obviously, still think about her daily and just do what I can to get through the days.
Last night she texted me, "Hey, i've been thinking about you a lot recently and hope you're doing well. feel free to call or text if you want".
B!tch!!!!! What is that text supposed to do, but increase the pain? How do I respond? Eff that. Its just more selfishness and she's feeling guilt on some level and wants to know I'm ok.
If I write back and tell her the truth-I'm sad and hurt and think about her all the time-it does nothing...sounds melodramatic and laced with guilt. If i pretend I'm great...well eff that too, because then she'll think, "awesome. He's great, i'm great, woo hoo!" So i'm just not going to write her back, BUT now i'm stuck with the thoughts that she's restirred up.
PSA: CHICKS SUCK.
Oh yeah, and add on top that my birthday (that obviously we were going to spend together) is next week and I've been sad that I won't have her around, and she does this to get me to realize it even more. Hatred becomes me.
BIRTHDAY UPDATE-
WOw....first of all, I did NOT think this was going to get bumped...especially on my birthday! LOL.....so weird.
And thanks to those of you who remembered it was my birthday. Crazy you noticed...but very appreciated.
So, since this was bumped, I will let you all know something that happened today. As I've mentioned (as have you) its my birthday...and i"ve wondered whether she'd A) remember and b) write or call.
Well, not only did she not call or write (at least so far-which I'm partially thankful for, because i guess I just want her to go away) but i got a friend request invite from her on facebook...and i've already canceled my account months ago. WTF?!?!?!?!?
I mean, really! The freakin odds....not only does she send me that crap in the first place...but on my birthday!!!!
So she left me, hurt me (by trying to help people, lol), and really...it sucked.
That was six weeks ago. I've still been sad, obviously, still think about her daily and just do what I can to get through the days.
Last night she texted me, "Hey, i've been thinking about you a lot recently and hope you're doing well. feel free to call or text if you want".
B!tch!!!!! What is that text supposed to do, but increase the pain? How do I respond? Eff that. Its just more selfishness and she's feeling guilt on some level and wants to know I'm ok.
If I write back and tell her the truth-I'm sad and hurt and think about her all the time-it does nothing...sounds melodramatic and laced with guilt. If i pretend I'm great...well eff that too, because then she'll think, "awesome. He's great, i'm great, woo hoo!" So i'm just not going to write her back, BUT now i'm stuck with the thoughts that she's restirred up.
PSA: CHICKS SUCK.
Oh yeah, and add on top that my birthday (that obviously we were going to spend together) is next week and I've been sad that I won't have her around, and she does this to get me to realize it even more. Hatred becomes me.
BIRTHDAY UPDATE-
WOw....first of all, I did NOT think this was going to get bumped...especially on my birthday! LOL.....so weird.
And thanks to those of you who remembered it was my birthday. Crazy you noticed...but very appreciated.
So, since this was bumped, I will let you all know something that happened today. As I've mentioned (as have you) its my birthday...and i"ve wondered whether she'd A) remember and b) write or call.
Well, not only did she not call or write (at least so far-which I'm partially thankful for, because i guess I just want her to go away) but i got a friend request invite from her on facebook...and i've already canceled my account months ago. WTF?!?!?!?!?
I mean, really! The freakin odds....not only does she send me that crap in the first place...but on my birthday!!!!