- Jun 14, 2004
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I made, what I think at least, a wise decision today and threw out all my hard liquor (5th of vodka and gin) plus I gave away about 30 beers I had lying in fridge to my roomate.
I have had ongoing personal problems for a little while now, and I will be going to a shrink or something just to get a little assistance (no I am not taking any pills. I know whats wrong and just need some guidance). However, my one boon for years now has been to drink 3-5 nights a week, with at least 1 night (sometimes 2 or 3) drinking alone because I would get bored at home. I used to also drink at least 3 alcoholic before going out with my friends or sometimes grabbing a 40oz and drinking while I was driving home from work or a good band practice.
Anyways, I came to a conclusion today that drinking was not helping anything, and is pretty much just a temporary solution. Sure it feels good, I mean I actually do like drinking and playing guitar alone at my house, but I guess thats a sign that I need to quit doing it (That and the fact that I drank 5 beers and killed half a 5th of vodka alone sunday night out of bordem). I have also not had a sober weekend in a number of years.
While I am not quitting drinking, I am certainly cutting back big time by doing a number of things. Number 1 is to stop any and all drinking alone, and only socially. Number 2 is to not own any actual alcohol in my apartment. Number 3 is to quit drinking hard liquor, I usually dont get blasted on beer. Number 4 is to always leave my credit card at home when I go out and only bring a certain amount of money. Number 5 is to never drive drunk, and I have not done this in a while because I now either get a ride or sleep in the back of my van when I get too drunk.
So you might be asking "Why not just quit drinking?". Simple, cause I still like to have a few beers with my friends at a bar, or get a couple with my bandmates after a good show. Moderation is the key here I believe, and the best times I have had are always the nights where I have a good buzz and dont get drunk. Only drink when the times call for it, not cause its a tuesday night and the wells are a dollar, or cause it a friday night and I am supposed to.
I might get flamed, I might get cussed at, but at least I am trying. I know that the first sign of alcoholism is denying it, but I really dont think I am there yet, I am just preventing it before it happens. Hopefully now I can get in even better, focus on my other problems, and get more hobbies, and stop a smell the semi-sober roses.
I have had ongoing personal problems for a little while now, and I will be going to a shrink or something just to get a little assistance (no I am not taking any pills. I know whats wrong and just need some guidance). However, my one boon for years now has been to drink 3-5 nights a week, with at least 1 night (sometimes 2 or 3) drinking alone because I would get bored at home. I used to also drink at least 3 alcoholic before going out with my friends or sometimes grabbing a 40oz and drinking while I was driving home from work or a good band practice.
Anyways, I came to a conclusion today that drinking was not helping anything, and is pretty much just a temporary solution. Sure it feels good, I mean I actually do like drinking and playing guitar alone at my house, but I guess thats a sign that I need to quit doing it (That and the fact that I drank 5 beers and killed half a 5th of vodka alone sunday night out of bordem). I have also not had a sober weekend in a number of years.
While I am not quitting drinking, I am certainly cutting back big time by doing a number of things. Number 1 is to stop any and all drinking alone, and only socially. Number 2 is to not own any actual alcohol in my apartment. Number 3 is to quit drinking hard liquor, I usually dont get blasted on beer. Number 4 is to always leave my credit card at home when I go out and only bring a certain amount of money. Number 5 is to never drive drunk, and I have not done this in a while because I now either get a ride or sleep in the back of my van when I get too drunk.
So you might be asking "Why not just quit drinking?". Simple, cause I still like to have a few beers with my friends at a bar, or get a couple with my bandmates after a good show. Moderation is the key here I believe, and the best times I have had are always the nights where I have a good buzz and dont get drunk. Only drink when the times call for it, not cause its a tuesday night and the wells are a dollar, or cause it a friday night and I am supposed to.
I might get flamed, I might get cussed at, but at least I am trying. I know that the first sign of alcoholism is denying it, but I really dont think I am there yet, I am just preventing it before it happens. Hopefully now I can get in even better, focus on my other problems, and get more hobbies, and stop a smell the semi-sober roses.