In my opinion the drive for self understanding and the drive to understand human nature which is essentially the same thing runs into a problem that is unrecognized and it is that as badly as we may want to understand and think we want to understand ourselves and others there is a force that is even greater that works in the opposite direction, a force that acts below conscious awareness, a desire not only not to know, but to not know that we do not want to know or to know that, the result of which is self blindness. The fact is that the last thing on earth that we want to allow to happen is to know what we really feel.
We died psychically as children, a death so painful it means dying all over again if we were to open those wounds and feel them again and remember.
What this means is that everything that we fear has already happened and that all that we think we fear is just a projection. Our psychic deaths consisted of the fact that via being put down with words associated with the threat of withdrawal of love we were made to feel that at core we were worthless and that only by dying to our full potential could be fit into the mold of conformity we were offered for safety. Once the deal was made we could never again be real.
On ancient maps you will see the known world surrounded by dragons, the fear of the unknown onto which we project our inner horror. It is this inner haunting, this terror of what we really feel that we project onto corporations, vaccines, the other, the liberal, the conservative, the other in infinite variety.
We are doomed to wonder lost within our own darkness and fear because we do not remember what we have experienced because it is deeply repressed. You have been made to feel that you are sin and evil, the worst person in the world. We live in a deep state of hypnotic sleep.
And did you but suffer you would not suffer. This is what death and resurrection require. What we feel is a lie, one that requires the terror of knowing we believe to reject. That terror is the last thing we ever want to experience and why for the ego all roads are a dead end.