Nobody can be so obsessed by the sexual perversion of others who doesn't have sexual perversion burned into his brain.
You call yourself normal, Butterbean, but you are not normal at all. You are absolutely lit up by this topic. It is central to everything you express. You have and are possessed by obsession. You are confused by the fact that your motive is good with some other driving need that you feel. The racist wants to save us from the evil of the race he hates. The desire to save is good. But the hatred of the race and the learned assumptions that it is evil is where the mistake is made. Are you white? If so you can see the insanity of those who hate whites. You are just as insane but in a different way. You are like some loon who runs around screaming at every opportunity that white people are evil. A loon like that can even be white. In a country full of white hating people, hating whites isn't normal. It is a culturally passed on delusion. Normal is not being obsessed, not having some delusion you have to shout about every three minutes. You have a mental illness and can be cured, but your delusion has become part of your identity. You will die a kind of death if you let go. The death you face is learning how to really live, to be free of obsession. Good luck.