As I have mentioned before, you are full of assumptions that do not track with reality. All of the insights I have tried to share with you I acquired as a product of the loss of all religious faith. I am not your notion of a believer. I believe in evidence based on experience and what I experienced is that truth does not require religious faith. The same experience that that some people find through religious faith, surrender to God’s will, total acceptance, loving God so intensely that the love of God for us becomes equal to one’s love of him, death of the ego, can happen to anybody who gives up and surrenders to the hopelessness and utter futility of that life has any meaning. To die in surrender, to disappear in love, th let go and fall into inescapable hell, it’s all the same, the awakening of the phoenix from the ashes of the exhausted self.
The only thing that has changed about me is the fact that as the right has become more and more insane I have tried more and more to keep that from happening on the left. We become what we fear. Have you ever noticed that If you tell people something factual they do not know they will see you as egotistical. Think about it.
I believe that guns are not the problem, that self hate is, that gun madness pro and con are smoke screams to avoid the fact that we as individuals are mentally ill. Jesus, of course, as a far far more enlightened being than I can ever hope to be offered a path for the people of his time to be free of it. I admireHim deeply and thank him for the little still left in his tracking that affected my life and drove me to search for hope. I would have not died to it had I not wanted to believe in it nor discovered why it is not subjective, but real.
Sure, be glad to. We have lived our whole lives in the Garden of Eden, ejected only by the Knowingness of unconscious propaganda that we are evil. We are forgiven because in order to survive as children we had to bite from the tree of Knowledge that creates what makes it possible to think in order to survive. Enlightenment is the end of thought, the end of belief, and the return to the oneness of being.