Alright, so here's the situation:
I currently have no life.
Right now I'm 19 and am taking classes at a 2 year community college, some generals, before i move to a real 4 year school next year.
The thing that sucks is that my friends in high school who i'd still want to hang around with are off at other colleges, so basically i have nobody to hang around with at all.
Now i figured going to a community college wouldnt really change much, and i was right. Most ppl here hang with kids they either knew from high school, or church youth groups, etc.
This is my first semester here (spring). This fall I started going to a four year school, but had to back out due to major anxiety problems.
To add to my dillema of not having a life right now:
The other problem is that I still havent gotten a part time job yet, and I have virtually no hobbies because I have a problem with sitting around and wasting all my time (I know, I'm working on this). But heck, as you can imagine, having no hobbies makes it hard to relate to people.
And having no stronghold as friends makes it hard to make new friends, starting from scratch absolutely blows.
Now because I'm not the typically partier, weed smokin, drunk gettin, girl playin' kind of person, finding cool people to be around becomes a little more of a challenge.
I seriously want to find some friends who are more the church type, and all that, and unfortunately I don't have any of those right now as I didn't make them inside the youth group i was in, during high school.
Anyways, now to the actual scenario:
At this community school during the lunch hour, i've been sitting at this table, because this really cute and God loving girl, sits there who is in my physics class, but there's a disadvantage:
A former friend from high school who stopped hangin out with me and acted too good for me, and hung out with his church friends instead, is also sitting there, his name is John,
and with him is sitting many of his church friends.
This girl in my geology class who sits there (her name's katie) has a friend, another hot girl named Emily, who knows some these church friends. heh, and i think emily is even hooking up with one of them, but thats kind of another story.
Anyways, they are kinda growing a little bit of a new clique, and meanwhile I've been kinda sitting around and doing the best i can to make an effort to kinda fix things with my old friend, meet his church friends, and also get to know this girl,
and i've been trying hard to try but not make it look like im trying too hard, its tricky.
Meanwhile no success. Like they don't invite me along with any of the stuff that they do by themselves. Like concerts they go to, or skiing trips, etc. (wish i knew how to ski!!) It's funny, it didn't take them long to get to know each other (which happened before i started sitting there, within about 3 weeks i think) but for some reason when i'm sitting there, its like they wont even give me the time of day!
I mean I'm seriously trying my best to be social and open without making myself look too desperate or like im trying too hard.
but it's been a few weeks and i havent gotten anywhere! It's like these people hardly even notice me!
The only thing that me and my old friend got in common is that we both have the same English teacher in one of our classes.
Anyways this blows. If you made it this far reading all of the post, i would like to congratulate you for your dilligence,
and if you have any advice to give me here, it would be very well appreciated!!
I currently have no life.
Right now I'm 19 and am taking classes at a 2 year community college, some generals, before i move to a real 4 year school next year.
The thing that sucks is that my friends in high school who i'd still want to hang around with are off at other colleges, so basically i have nobody to hang around with at all.
Now i figured going to a community college wouldnt really change much, and i was right. Most ppl here hang with kids they either knew from high school, or church youth groups, etc.
This is my first semester here (spring). This fall I started going to a four year school, but had to back out due to major anxiety problems.
To add to my dillema of not having a life right now:
The other problem is that I still havent gotten a part time job yet, and I have virtually no hobbies because I have a problem with sitting around and wasting all my time (I know, I'm working on this). But heck, as you can imagine, having no hobbies makes it hard to relate to people.
And having no stronghold as friends makes it hard to make new friends, starting from scratch absolutely blows.
Now because I'm not the typically partier, weed smokin, drunk gettin, girl playin' kind of person, finding cool people to be around becomes a little more of a challenge.
I seriously want to find some friends who are more the church type, and all that, and unfortunately I don't have any of those right now as I didn't make them inside the youth group i was in, during high school.
Anyways, now to the actual scenario:
At this community school during the lunch hour, i've been sitting at this table, because this really cute and God loving girl, sits there who is in my physics class, but there's a disadvantage:
A former friend from high school who stopped hangin out with me and acted too good for me, and hung out with his church friends instead, is also sitting there, his name is John,
and with him is sitting many of his church friends.
This girl in my geology class who sits there (her name's katie) has a friend, another hot girl named Emily, who knows some these church friends. heh, and i think emily is even hooking up with one of them, but thats kind of another story.
Anyways, they are kinda growing a little bit of a new clique, and meanwhile I've been kinda sitting around and doing the best i can to make an effort to kinda fix things with my old friend, meet his church friends, and also get to know this girl,
and i've been trying hard to try but not make it look like im trying too hard, its tricky.
Meanwhile no success. Like they don't invite me along with any of the stuff that they do by themselves. Like concerts they go to, or skiing trips, etc. (wish i knew how to ski!!) It's funny, it didn't take them long to get to know each other (which happened before i started sitting there, within about 3 weeks i think) but for some reason when i'm sitting there, its like they wont even give me the time of day!
I mean I'm seriously trying my best to be social and open without making myself look too desperate or like im trying too hard.
but it's been a few weeks and i havent gotten anywhere! It's like these people hardly even notice me!
The only thing that me and my old friend got in common is that we both have the same English teacher in one of our classes.
Anyways this blows. If you made it this far reading all of the post, i would like to congratulate you for your dilligence,
and if you have any advice to give me here, it would be very well appreciated!!
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