My best friend and i have been on rocky ground lately due to a lot of stuff. We had a talk where she lectured me for 3 hours about the way i have been and decisions i have recently made. She asked me to seek counceling. That was 3 weeks ago and i wrote her an email 2 nights ago about a lot of stuff that has been going on since then and responded to some of the stufff she has told me.
Tonight she calls me up to talk about stuff and it did not go well. She's upset at me, thinks i need help, says she has less respect for me now and doesn't know who i am anymore and the person i am she can't be friends with. Said that she can't stand around and see me like this anymore so she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. She said if i seek help, get better, less depressed, get a job, do well in school, fix my relationship with my mom and sis, and perhaps stop dating the person i have been, then maybe down the line we could be friends again. i did cry. I don't see where she is coming from. 2 hours on the phone and we hung up. Told me she wouldn't delete me from myspace and i know where to find her (though she has removed me from her top 8, use to be #3). She told me she loves me and only wants to see me better.
I have never been so depressed in my life.
i'm not here asking for sympathy, i just don't know who else to talk to she is the one i would normally go to to talk or for comfort and advice.
-cliffs-
-best friend and i have been on rocky ground
-talked to me 3 weeks ago about how she thinks i need to see help
-she thinks i am depressed and hates it
-dislikes who i am dating and would like me to stop seeing them
-told me we shouldn't talk anymore
-if i see help, fix things with fam, job, school, and stop dating who i am, we might be able to be friends down the line
-me=more depressed than ever
-=update 2/15/07=-
I started seeing a psychologist through school yesterday. next appointment is for next wednesday. things have actually gotten worse with everything as of today. she said i might have to be on antidepresents.
Tonight she calls me up to talk about stuff and it did not go well. She's upset at me, thinks i need help, says she has less respect for me now and doesn't know who i am anymore and the person i am she can't be friends with. Said that she can't stand around and see me like this anymore so she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. She said if i seek help, get better, less depressed, get a job, do well in school, fix my relationship with my mom and sis, and perhaps stop dating the person i have been, then maybe down the line we could be friends again. i did cry. I don't see where she is coming from. 2 hours on the phone and we hung up. Told me she wouldn't delete me from myspace and i know where to find her (though she has removed me from her top 8, use to be #3). She told me she loves me and only wants to see me better.
I have never been so depressed in my life.
i'm not here asking for sympathy, i just don't know who else to talk to she is the one i would normally go to to talk or for comfort and advice.
-cliffs-
-best friend and i have been on rocky ground
-talked to me 3 weeks ago about how she thinks i need to see help
-she thinks i am depressed and hates it
-dislikes who i am dating and would like me to stop seeing them
-told me we shouldn't talk anymore
-if i see help, fix things with fam, job, school, and stop dating who i am, we might be able to be friends down the line
-me=more depressed than ever
-=update 2/15/07=-
I started seeing a psychologist through school yesterday. next appointment is for next wednesday. things have actually gotten worse with everything as of today. she said i might have to be on antidepresents.
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