Every other boss I've ever had gives me a task list, but he refuses to do so, yet he says since I am his son I am a special case and will try to help me.
I ask him what we are going to need tomorow, he says "i'll let you know."
I ask him what tools I need to have ready, he naswers the same.
I am knew at starting my own business, but am not new to responsibility. As it turns ot depression has been why I have never had a steady job. I would always be a stellar performer but would always miss aday or two, and get fired on the spot due to company policies. we are talkign about sometimes 3months of excellent performance and then I'd have a "bad" day and get fired.
It's like having a gun in my face is no biggie, or workign for a 85000 employee company or practically running a company on my back ( i had to do that for a mismanaged co. I worked this past year for ...it was awful) is nothing until i have a bad day. Now I seem to have remedied that but have no credibility with anyone. They all see me as someone who cannot get up on time and don't care how great of a worker or how smart I am.
Like I said, I knew what responsibility was, and since I have been taking meds, keeping my myself moderate and rather upbeat hasn't been the challenge it once was....the debacle really.
Anyways, I finally capitulated and said, look, you are confusing me to no end. You tell me that you want me to help you, but you will not let me know basic things, such as what tools I need to have ready for you or what we are even goign to be doing tomorow.
I finally said, look, I will jsut depend on my own then, writing down everything I hear you say, but find it sad that we couldn't have done this together where you could give me more intel, and he blew up in my face for demanding that of him.
Hoenstly, I am a wreck right now. I am really working hard for him, in an industry that I am not even good at, because I know how to manage info, how to deal with people, how to get thigns done, but he is frustrating me to no end.
Yeah I will have a notebook and right thigns down by myself tomorow and figure out who our clients are and everything, but I thought this was going to be a team effort. I am jsut so dissapointeed that he doesn't get that. I am just so dissapointed that he wants my help in such an ad hoc fashion.....when it could be so much more
Hell, I was going to manage the data, and he refuses to give me any of it.
It's jsut.....urgh.....I'm sure we will get through with it but it is jsut so demeaning, to be spoken at like you are a child, nothign really, and have them turn around and say that they are trying to help.
Hell, we bought quickbooks, and now is forcing me to return it because we aren't going anywhere with it.....probably because he won't give me any input to add to the database...
:shurg;
c'est la vie, et quel vie c'est....
<---a wreck....
I ask him what we are going to need tomorow, he says "i'll let you know."
I ask him what tools I need to have ready, he naswers the same.
I am knew at starting my own business, but am not new to responsibility. As it turns ot depression has been why I have never had a steady job. I would always be a stellar performer but would always miss aday or two, and get fired on the spot due to company policies. we are talkign about sometimes 3months of excellent performance and then I'd have a "bad" day and get fired.
It's like having a gun in my face is no biggie, or workign for a 85000 employee company or practically running a company on my back ( i had to do that for a mismanaged co. I worked this past year for ...it was awful) is nothing until i have a bad day. Now I seem to have remedied that but have no credibility with anyone. They all see me as someone who cannot get up on time and don't care how great of a worker or how smart I am.
Like I said, I knew what responsibility was, and since I have been taking meds, keeping my myself moderate and rather upbeat hasn't been the challenge it once was....the debacle really.
Anyways, I finally capitulated and said, look, you are confusing me to no end. You tell me that you want me to help you, but you will not let me know basic things, such as what tools I need to have ready for you or what we are even goign to be doing tomorow.
I finally said, look, I will jsut depend on my own then, writing down everything I hear you say, but find it sad that we couldn't have done this together where you could give me more intel, and he blew up in my face for demanding that of him.
Hoenstly, I am a wreck right now. I am really working hard for him, in an industry that I am not even good at, because I know how to manage info, how to deal with people, how to get thigns done, but he is frustrating me to no end.
Yeah I will have a notebook and right thigns down by myself tomorow and figure out who our clients are and everything, but I thought this was going to be a team effort. I am jsut so dissapointeed that he doesn't get that. I am just so dissapointed that he wants my help in such an ad hoc fashion.....when it could be so much more
Hell, I was going to manage the data, and he refuses to give me any of it.
It's jsut.....urgh.....I'm sure we will get through with it but it is jsut so demeaning, to be spoken at like you are a child, nothign really, and have them turn around and say that they are trying to help.
Hell, we bought quickbooks, and now is forcing me to return it because we aren't going anywhere with it.....probably because he won't give me any input to add to the database...
:shurg;
c'est la vie, et quel vie c'est....
<---a wreck....
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