After running my 100/200 meter race (and very slowly at that, no modesty here, i was just flat out slow), they'd ask, "what happened?" or "is your leg okay?" "No, i'm fine," i'd respond, knowing that i was 100% fine. And they go on to tell me how they've been scared of running against me in upcoming track meets, and how they see me as their prime competitor.
There's a problem with this though. I AM NOT THEIR PRIME COMPETITOR. Yes, i ran very well last season, but this season has been terrible. I've been sick and busy for two weeks, the two weeks before preliminaries and finals. As of now, i'm just slow. Coming out of a sickness, i was able to run a race completely fine, using up stored energy whilst i rested. But, once that energy was all used up (which is now), there's nothing left. And when i say "there's nothing left," trust me, there really isn't. All the times that I ran today were slower than my freshman/junior times, and i'm a senior.
What i do not understand is how they can still see me as their viable opponent. They've already beaten me. Yet they still expect me to somehow excel and give them competition. I've always been the competitive type, but when you have a weak track team that only runs 4-5 meets per season, with sporadic training intervals, and two weeks out of practice--there's not much i can hope for. Everytime somebody asks if something's wrong, or if i just had a bad race, it makes me feel bad. I am not able to fulfill their expectations because of my lack of training and strength at this point.
I don't know, it seems that i'm just not living up to anyone's expectations. Not even my own as of this moment. I just don't want to be known as the "has been," even though there isn't much i can do about it at this point in time.
There's a problem with this though. I AM NOT THEIR PRIME COMPETITOR. Yes, i ran very well last season, but this season has been terrible. I've been sick and busy for two weeks, the two weeks before preliminaries and finals. As of now, i'm just slow. Coming out of a sickness, i was able to run a race completely fine, using up stored energy whilst i rested. But, once that energy was all used up (which is now), there's nothing left. And when i say "there's nothing left," trust me, there really isn't. All the times that I ran today were slower than my freshman/junior times, and i'm a senior.
What i do not understand is how they can still see me as their viable opponent. They've already beaten me. Yet they still expect me to somehow excel and give them competition. I've always been the competitive type, but when you have a weak track team that only runs 4-5 meets per season, with sporadic training intervals, and two weeks out of practice--there's not much i can hope for. Everytime somebody asks if something's wrong, or if i just had a bad race, it makes me feel bad. I am not able to fulfill their expectations because of my lack of training and strength at this point.
I don't know, it seems that i'm just not living up to anyone's expectations. Not even my own as of this moment. I just don't want to be known as the "has been," even though there isn't much i can do about it at this point in time.
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