Is this suicidal? Do you think about this often?

[Zeze]

Don't be alarmed. I'm fine. I have a nice job, I have a happy family, I love my wife, kids, parents, friends, etc. I don't wish to end my life prematurely nor willingly.

But I do think about this- I kind of look forward to drawing my last breath, on my last day (hopefully when I'm in 80s/90s).

No more life responsibilities
No more worries
No more life things to do.

Just close eyes... and relax.. well it's not even relaxing, you just cease to exist.

That sounds so amazing. I think about it time to time.

 

[disappoint]

Don't be alarmed. I'm fine. I have a nice job, I have a happy family, I love my wife, kids, parents, friends, etc. I don't wish to end my life prematurely nor willingly.

But I do think about this- I kind of look forward to drawing my last breath, on my last day (hopefully when I'm in 80s/90s).

No more life responsibilities
No more worries
No more life things to do.

Just close eyes... and relax.. well it's not even relaxing, you just cease to exist.

That sounds so amazing. I think about it time to time.

Don't be alarmed. You're fine. You have a nice job, a happy family. You love your wife, kids, parents, friends, even the hyperracism baiting trolls on these boards...etc. Just kidding about that last one. But are you getting enough sleep? Serious question.

 

[gorcorps]

That sounds so amazing. I think about it time to time.

You need to talk to someone

Like, a real person, not us

 

[Humpy]

It doesn't sound amazing at all and I try not to think about it.

What I have thought about is that if, like in a movie, I had to be murderously evil in order to become immortal I would probably do it in a heartbeat.

 

[Zeze]

It doesn't sound amazing at all and I try not to think about it.

What I have thought about is that if, like in a movie, I had to be murderously evil in order to become immortal I would probably do it in a heartbeat.

What part of being an immortal is appealing to you?

Life is mostly as good as your love, family and friends that surround you. They all die, you'll be a wandering miserable guy (just like Logan).

What, just so you can see some tidbits of scifi fantasy becoming news? Chances are, you won't get to go to Mars or whatever. You'll just see about it in the news.

And all that is empty without meaning relationships in your life.

 

[lxskllr]

I think about how pointless this shit is, and fear being stuck in my own body, not able to care for, or off myself; perhaps growing dumber over time, so when it's too late, I'm too stupid to do something about it.

 

[Humpy]

What part of being an immortal is appealing to you?

Life is mostly as good as your love, family and friends that surround you. They all die, you'll be a wandering miserable guy (just like Logan).

What, just so you can see some tidbits of scifi fantasy becoming news? Chances are, you won't get to go to Mars or whatever. You'll just see about it in the news.

And all that is empty without meaning relationships in your life.

Mostly I am terrified of dying. I am pretty narcissistic and find it easy to move on to new relationships so I don't think that would be an issue.

I am curious to see how things end, how empires fall and are reborn and fall again. I'd like to witness WWIII and the short and long term aftermath. I'd like to see what things that we are absolutely sure of will turn out to be wrong. Crap like that.

 

[Red Squirrel]

I don't necessarily look forward to death, but I sometimes imagine how neat it might be as you will basically get to explore a completely different realm of reality, whatever after life brings or the transition feels like. But it will also be very scary because it will be unknown. I'm Christian and believe in God and heaven, but still can't help but wonder, what if it's actually false. Then what? The concept of simply ceasing to exist is kinda mind boggling, though so is the concept of considering I don't remember what it was like before i was born because I did not exist. How does a consciousness just start, or end? it's kind of mind numbing to think about.

 

[Zeze]

Mostly I am terrified of dying. I am pretty narcissistic and find it easy to move on to new relationships so I don't think that would be an issue.

I am curious to see how things end, how empires fall and are reborn and fall again. I'd like to witness WWIII and the short and long term aftermath. I'd like to see what things that we are absolutely sure of will turn out to be wrong. Crap like that.

I see. But time moves sooooooooooo slow to see 'empires rise and fall'. Ugh. Exhausting.

 

[Printer Bandit]

"As the embodied soul continually passes, in this body, from boyhood to youth to old age, the soul similarly passes into another body at death. The self-realized soul is not bewildered by such a change."

--BG 2.13

 

[Zeze]

What if it's actually false. Then what? The concept of simply ceasing to exist is kinda mind boggling, though so is the concept of considering I don't remember what it was like before i was born because I did not exist. How does a consciousness just start, or end? it's kind of mind numbing to think about.

I read this question on internet which sounded just PERFECT regarding 'ceasing to exist':

"Do you remember what you were like before you were born?": That's what death & cease to exist feels like.

 

[lxskllr]

I read this question on internet which sounded just PERFECT regarding 'ceasing to exist':

"Do you remember what you were like before you were born?": That's what death & cease to exist feels like.

 

[disappoint]

I see. But time moves sooooooooooo slow to see 'empires rise and fall'. Ugh. Exhausting.

Another hint that you need more rest. The non-eternal kind.

Oh and to answer the two questions in your title:
No I don't think you're suicidal.
No I don't think about death often.

Furthermore I don't think it's healthy to be preoccupied with it. You'd be wasting time thinking about death instead of living your life. That can't be pleasant. Once in a while we all think about it. But not often.

When you say often, how often exactly do you think about your own death?

 

[thejunglegod]

Sorry man. I don't look forward to my last breath. Well, not yet I guess.
And what is so wrong in being immortal? I understanding losing everyone around you will be overwhelming, but if you're immortal then I'm sure you understand life and its fallacies (think Dr. Manhattan). I'd love to be around to see where the future gets us - teleportation, planetary travel, the next mass extinction...What sights to behold!
Coming to think of it, I would certainly want it to end sometime. But not at all in the near future and I definitely don't look forward to it.

 

[dave_the_nerd]

Sounds like something a Slaaneshi would say.

 

[mikeymikec]

No more life responsibilities
No more worries
No more life things to do.

Just close eyes... and relax..

Admittedly I've chopped some of your post, but have you considered this bit (more or less) is called retirement?

I'm just taking on my first mortgage at the moment, something in the region of a hundred times the amount of debt I've ever taken on before and I already don't like it. Maybe I'll get by on thoughts of winning the premium bonds and trying to drive my business as much as possible, because the thought of being without that debt feels like bliss

 

[angminas]

And then there's suicide, which combines the two.

 

[Geekbabe]

I have cancer, there are days when I think about dying and pray for it to be peaceful. However, I try to stay in the moment, I think about people & things I love. My family, my cats, technology ( I can't die till someone makes the perfect smartphone, so I figure I will be around awhile

Everyone has random death thoughts on occasion but if this is a regular thing for you, talking to a professional might not be a bad idea. Your life might not be as stress free as it appears on the surface. Book an appointment, I have gone, it helped a lot & there is no shame in it.

 

[purbeast0]

No I've never thought about that, and to me that doesn't seem like a normal thing to think about. I'm scared as shit of death and hope to live to like 120 years old if possible, as long as I'm all there. Chances are that won't happen, but one can hope.

 

[Carson Dyle]

Yes. No.

 

[Exterous]

Can't say I've every really thought that. Still too much to see and do

You need to talk to someone

Like, a real person, not us

Screw you - I am a real person with like feelings and shit

 

[PricklyPete]

No. I never think of death and how "relaxing" that would be. For reference, I also have small kids (3 that are 3 or younger). If anything, they want me to live more.

I know you think you are fine, but sounds to me like you need to make some adjustments in your life if your current situation makes you think death sounds good.

 

[rh71]

The saddest thing to me about it ending prematurely is not being able to see how the kids turn out. All their life achievements over decades completely missed. From their perspective, all the years going by without one of their parents sharing in it. Just tears at the heart-strings.

 

[purbeast0]

The saddest thing to me about it ending prematurely is not being able to see how the kids turn out. All their life achievements over decades completely missed. From their perspective, all the years going by without one of their parents sharing in it. Just tears at the heart-strings.

This has really gotten me over the past years. My dad died nearly 8 years ago at this point, and it saddens me that he hasn't seen how successful I have become. He died less than a year after I got married, so at least he was there for that and I have the memories/pictures of him at my wedding. But he never saw where my career took me, he never saw my first house, he never saw my home theater (and he loved movies, probably a big reason I love them too), he never saw his grandson, and a whole lot more that he never got to see. I do think about it somewhat frequently too, it really sucks.

 

[Capt Caveman]

Nope. Seek help. Sounds like you've been unhappy for some time. Sure life can be a chore but I hate the thought of dying. I would miss being around my love ones, experiencing new and adventurous places, foods, etc. Would miss the small things just being able to pet my dogs, go a hike in the woods, go for a run along the river. The thought you wouldn't want to spend more time with your spouse, children and future grand children says that you should seek help. Not here but real help.