rudeguy
Lifer
because I can.
I started at my new department at work. Its the same kind of work, just a different mindset. Its refreshing the way we do things now. I'm mildly upset at myself that I didn't make the change a year ago before I took a massive paycut trying to make my old job work. But I am more appreciative of it because of the rough times I went through.
Today is 1 solid week without a cigarette. I talked to the stop smoking lady last time we had a health fair at work. She recommended I try the patch AND lozenges at the same time. I thought she was nuts because I had heard that was bad. But after 3 or 4 complete fails while trying to use will power, I gave it a shot. I used the patch for the first 5 days and munched lozenges when I had a bad craving. Now I'm down to just lozenges. I'm going to slowly wean myself off those. They do not agree with my digestive system.
And then...and then there is the 4 year mark. I honestly think today is the official day but I celebrate it on March 1st because leap year being my sobriety date would be a pain to explain. But that was a while ago and most of that time is a blur. I don't go to meetings anymore. Not because I don't believe in AA or the 12 steps, I'm just too freaking busy. For my first year of sobriety I hid in meetings. I didn't live my life because I was too scared to experience the world without going home to drink it off. God had granted me that ability now.
In my perfect world, I will find a way to budget my time so that I can: 1) start working out again 2) go to at least one meeting a week 3) clean house more often and 4) feel like there is some order to my life.
I'm still single. Only had one girlfriend and the random 13th stepper since I got sober. I'm still not sure I can be the dad I want to be if I bring in a 2nd mom for my son. Plus I like the drama free life I live. I don't like doing laundry or grocery shopping though.
So that's it. I quit smoking, I hit another year sober, I'm still fat and I'm still single. Thanks for letting me blog. Its been real.
I started at my new department at work. Its the same kind of work, just a different mindset. Its refreshing the way we do things now. I'm mildly upset at myself that I didn't make the change a year ago before I took a massive paycut trying to make my old job work. But I am more appreciative of it because of the rough times I went through.
Today is 1 solid week without a cigarette. I talked to the stop smoking lady last time we had a health fair at work. She recommended I try the patch AND lozenges at the same time. I thought she was nuts because I had heard that was bad. But after 3 or 4 complete fails while trying to use will power, I gave it a shot. I used the patch for the first 5 days and munched lozenges when I had a bad craving. Now I'm down to just lozenges. I'm going to slowly wean myself off those. They do not agree with my digestive system.
And then...and then there is the 4 year mark. I honestly think today is the official day but I celebrate it on March 1st because leap year being my sobriety date would be a pain to explain. But that was a while ago and most of that time is a blur. I don't go to meetings anymore. Not because I don't believe in AA or the 12 steps, I'm just too freaking busy. For my first year of sobriety I hid in meetings. I didn't live my life because I was too scared to experience the world without going home to drink it off. God had granted me that ability now.
In my perfect world, I will find a way to budget my time so that I can: 1) start working out again 2) go to at least one meeting a week 3) clean house more often and 4) feel like there is some order to my life.
I'm still single. Only had one girlfriend and the random 13th stepper since I got sober. I'm still not sure I can be the dad I want to be if I bring in a 2nd mom for my son. Plus I like the drama free life I live. I don't like doing laundry or grocery shopping though.
So that's it. I quit smoking, I hit another year sober, I'm still fat and I'm still single. Thanks for letting me blog. Its been real.
