i have bipolar disorder...

[ILikeSprite]

I've been trying to figure out wtf i have for the past few weeks and my best friend told me that she thinks i'm manic-depressive. Well i didn't think she was right at first so i've been researching it for the past week and i'm almost positive that's what i have (Bipolar II Disorder to be exact). she wants me to get help but i don't want to see anyone. i can't stand talking to people. she is the only person on earth i can open up to. i think she's mad at me now though because i told her i didn't want to get help. she has been avoiding me. i think she's given up on me.. i'm so depressed right now. i can't form complete thoughts anymore and i keep having these extreme mood swings. i can go from really happy to extremely depressed in just a matter of seconds. i am so unstable..... and i have to force myself to appear normal everyday at school. i feel like i might have a mental breakdown any second. i have only gotten about 5-6 hours of sleep since last Sunday and i haven't been able to eat either. It's 5:42AM here and i haven't gotten to sleep yet...... i just can't sleep. i am finally starting to realize that i need help..... but i don't know how to tell my mom. i've already tried once and it was a disaster. I hate talking to my mom.... but my dad is like 100x worse.

 

[Kadarin]

You and "Atlantean" should get together and go bowling.. (if he's still around).

How old are you? You mention talking to your parents, so I assume that means going to a doctor on your own may be out of the question? You may have some nutritional deficiency, and may need more excercise. Hard to say, but I would recommend talking with a doctor if at all possible.

 

[Chaotic42]

Wow, I've been feeling the same way recently. Seriously.

You should talk to them. Go to the doctor. I decided this morning that if I kept feeling like this for another week, I'd go to the doc. I've been having terrible mood swings, my mind is going nuts. I feel like I'm on speed mentally, but I'm tired physically. I've been screaming in my sleep. Having nightmares.

Dude, I hope you get help. It could be something chronic, it could just be something that has recently happened, but you should get checked out. Mental illness runs in my family, I know what it can do.

 

[ILikeSprite]

<< Wow, I've been feeling the same way recently. Seriously.

You should talk to them. Go to the doctor. I decided this morning that if I kept feeling like this for another week, I'd go to the doc. I've been having terrible mood swings, my mind is going nuts. I feel like I'm on speed mentally, but I'm tired physically. I've been screaming in my sleep. Having nightmares.

Dude, I hope you get help. It could be something chronic, it could just be something that has recently happened, but you should get checked out. Mental illness runs in my family, I know what it can do. >>



it runs in my family too. i've been reading these boards and the people there are going through exactly what i'm going through.... i've been looking at the treatment for bipolar disorder and there basically isn't one.... it's like constant management for the rest of your life.... i'm really loosing hope........

 

[PrinceofWands]

<< i've been looking at the treatment for bipolar disorder and there basically isn't one.... it's like constant management for the rest of your life.... i'm really loosing hope........ >>




I know this will sound strange, coming from a confirmed pessimist like me, but:

I had a friend from grade school whose mother was in a wheelchair. I never felt comfortable asking why, so I put it out of my mind. When I was in 2rd grade my own mom was diagnosed with serious lung cancer. I somehow knew it would kill her, and I was already a very negative person, so I didn't hope much. My friend (from the beginning of this story) asked me to come over for dinner. When I got there his mom wanted to talk with me. She told me that when she was very young, she came down with Polio (this was before the vaccine). It was very bad, and it was pretty much accepted that you would die or be severely crippled from it. Her mother couldn't accept having to watch her daughter die, so she killed herself. 3 days later, the polio vaccine was announced. My friends mom DID lose the use of her legs, but she lived, had 3 kids, great job, and a very full and happy life. She told me not to give up hope. My mom fought hard, and after losing a lung and much of her throat, she beat it into remission. It gave us 10 more years with her, during which we got to say and do what needed to be said and done.

You are very VERY young...saying there isn't a 'cure' now, doesn't mean anything with the speed at which our knowledge is increasing. If you have a problem, get help, and fight...like you've never fought before. While hope lives, possibilities exist.

Good luck.