I don't belong here

[johnjohn320]

[mellodrama]

For the 2nd and final year I attended the Indiana University Piano Academy. It was hard to leave last year for about a million reasons, but it was just as hard to leave this year (I got back tonight). What was almost as difficult as leaving was coming home. I realized while I was gone that I only missed one thing from home (my best friend). Not to diminish his importance to me, but other than him there's nothing here. While I'm at that academy, both last year and this year more than ever, I felt like I was where I was supposed to be, doing what I was supposed to do everyday with the people I'm supposed to be with.

I loved the place. I loved my peers. I loved my teachers. I loved the education I received.

I loved my life.

I can't explain how things seem to be so right in such a short amount of time, but they were just were. I do believe that the people I've met and the experiences I've had are among the most important I will ever have.

I haven't slept in 38 hours.

Sorry if this made no sense.

 

[thirtythree]

You'll find a better life somewhere else.

Or you might not but it sounded like a nice thing to say...

Your title reminds me of a song. I wish I was special. You're so fvcking special.

 

[johnjohn320]

Originally posted by: Deslocke
You'll find a better life somewhere else.

Or you might not but it sounded like a nice thing to say...

Your title reminds me of a song. I wish I was special. You're so fvcking special.

But I'm a creep....

 

[thirtythree]

Aww. Don't be so hard on yourself.



Oh I see. You were just continuing with the song.

but I'm a creep
and I'm a weirdo
what the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here...

 

[MournSanity]

You sound like you need a :beer:

:beer: up, will ya?

 

[her209]

You are a John.

 

[DanTMWTMP]

hey...play the piano and record it or video it...yeah play the mario songs! (assumes from the name of ur college...i can be an idiot ..hehe correct me if i'm wrong)


but anyways...


hang out w/ ur friend.. man....every place has their own "feel" to it...i feel great when i go home..cuz "ahh..home"...

and i feel great when i go back to san diego.."ahh..2nd home...and school doh ..hehe.."....

 

[johnjohn320]

Originally posted by: DanTMWTMP
hey...play the piano and record it or video it...yeah play the mario songs! (assumes from the name of ur college...i can be an idiot ..hehe correct me if i'm wrong)


but anyways...


hang out w/ ur friend.. man....every place has their own "feel" to it...i feel great when i go home..cuz "ahh..home"...

and i feel great when i go back to san diego.."ahh..2nd home...and school doh ..hehe.."....

You'll have to explain the connection between Mario and IU to me. 😕

Yeah, I'm hanging out with my best friend tonight, we're gonna cook up some steaks and talk about what's news for both of us. I'll be sharing photos and stories from the Academy, and he's in love (he finally dropped the "L" word with the gf), so I'm sure he'll have plenty to tell also. 😉

Things aren't bad, I just really miss my friends from the academy. lol I already got a phone call this morning from one of them saying how much she misses me and has already sent me a letter...heh. I'm touched 😉 . Missing people is one thing, being missed by other people is a very awkward and strange feeling for me...

 

[WinkOsmosis]

I want a perfect body.

 

[Zanix]

I think I'm along the same lines as you. Feels like my brain has stagnated since I've been home. No "free" gym at home either... body's stagnated as well. I work a job while my self progress comes to a grinding hault. The people in my hometown have mostly lived here their entire lives (smalltownish); so naturally most people haven't done a whole lot with their lives other than work (higher education, traveling, etc..) . "Beer tent capitol of the world" apparently... It makes me feel very fortunate to be able to live elsewhere, and at the same time, I don't like being home. It's weird to look forward to the school year, when all through grade school it was looking forward to summer.

 

[johnjohn320]

Originally posted by: Zanix
I think I'm along the same lines as you. Feels like my brain has stagnated since I've been home. No "free" gym at home either... body's stagnated as well. I work a job while my self progress comes to a grinding hault. The people in my hometown have mostly lived here their entire lives (smalltownish); so naturally most people haven't done a whole lot with their lives other than work (higher education, traveling, etc..) . "Beer tent capitol of the world" apparently... It makes me feel very fortunate to be able to live elsewhere, and at the same time, I don't like being home. It's weird to look forward to the school year, when all through grade school it was looking forward to summer.

Yeah...just to clarify the differences though, I'm not in college yet. I'm about to be a senior in high school-this Academy at IU is for high school students. Students come from all over the world and then leave. So, basically, we're not all going back in the fall and seeing each other again (that's why this is so hard, I'm probably never gonna see these people again).