We broke up, then decided to get back together(on a trail basis EXCLUSIVELY JUST SEEING EACH OTHER the next night she basically stranded me at the bar, me not knowing where she was.... She told me that it was her friend's(a girl) last night in town and that she would be going home with her(they're room mates) Well I came to find out she went home with some guy. I called her the next day she had the audacity to tell me that she never wanted to talk to me again. (This is when I should have told her where to go to). We talked some since then I stupidly have been very honest with her and told her that I loved her and just wanted to be with her again and we could work it all out, She basically told me that she didn't wanna see anybody right now and she needed time to think. More recently on Friday (my birthday) we went and got something to eat, I saw that her cell phone had a wierd face plate on it so I picked it up to look at it and she said give it back to her. So I did and asked her what her problem was...... she said lets go inside and she'll explain so we go inside my house and she is messing around with her phone on the way in and I was finally like let me see it (because she was freaking ut about it). Well it ends up being that this dudes number is in her phone (that she was afraid I was going to see WTF) that she supposedly claimed was a friend of one of her friends etc... but, I know for a fact that this is some guy that she has been talking to her friend about possibly messing around with (she met him and who knows what she did with him while we were going out). She lied about the whole thing, I told her that I just wanted her to tell me the truth and that is all I wanted. She proceeded to sit there and lie to me about the whole thing. Then she went on to tell me that one way or the other she didn't care what I thought about it.
I think that I've been trying to see her as better than what she is, I think she has problems and I was trying to help, my friends told me to not talk to her and stay the hell away from her, I should have listened.
I also told her "I just keep thinking that if I could make you see how you are being towards me she would realize she is being crappy", she basically told me she didn't want to think about those things and she would rather ignore the reality of the situation because IT MADE HER FEEL BETTER.
Whoa, she is crazy
and pretty crappy way to treat me after four years of being together.....