I feel akward telling a bunch of geeks on AT this, but this community has been very important to me over the past couple of years, so why not share an important piece of who I am with AT.
I've been dreading telling anyone this for a long time, but the question has never really come up wiht my family, and I've hidden it from my best friend since we met. I didn't want to be one of those people who lived fake lives, only to tell their wife and kids I hate sushi after a 10 year disfunctional dinner or something like that. Why should I fear being who I am, and fear people's reactions? I've finally gotten the nerve to let her know - after all, she is my best friend. I made a pact with myself a few months ago that I would tell her, but everytime I tried, I would either avoid the discussion all together, I'd chicken out.
Seriously, how hard can it be to tell your best friend that you're an anti raw fish person, especially considering that she is too? I agonized over it in my head, almost as if I was two people. Part of me would say "Just go it - it's only 3 little words - I HATE SUSHI", the other would fear what kind of reaction I'd get from her, and not want to go through with it. The feeling of uncertainty is something I've never really had to cope with, and the uncertainty of her reaction scared me. Woudl she stop being my friend, would our relationship suddenly change, WHAT WOULD HAPPEN?!?!?!
So today, I hung out at her house (she needed her computer fixed - it's always nice to find spyware and virus infested hardware, but that's another story, obviously!). I knew this would forever change our dining plans. I had told her yesterday that I needed to talk to her about something important today, so today was the day.
We ran a couple of errands - and on the way back to her place - I know I had to spill the beans. I didn't want this to be any kind of mushy announcement, just simple and to the point.
So, sitting at a red light I looked at her and said "Anna, I dont like sushi, and I just wanted to let you know. You're the first person I've told". I know I had this scared and confused look on my face, awaiting her reaction.
She laughed and asked if this was a joke.
That wasn't one of the reactions I thought she would have. In the days prior to today, I felt like one of those hurricane prediction computers, instead of spitting out multiple ways to obliterate Florida, I was calculating what her response would be - and that wasn't one of them. I was expecing something much more harsh. When I told her I was serious, she told me she was a little surprised, but that we were still cool and that she loved me. The weight had been lifted, and I felt like such an idiot for agonizing over something was really no big deal - I had made an elephant out of an ant.
So, one of my life's major mile markers has past, and I just wanted to let you guys know
Cliffnotes:
- Grab leftover sushi, throw it into the garbage, masterbate
I've been dreading telling anyone this for a long time, but the question has never really come up wiht my family, and I've hidden it from my best friend since we met. I didn't want to be one of those people who lived fake lives, only to tell their wife and kids I hate sushi after a 10 year disfunctional dinner or something like that. Why should I fear being who I am, and fear people's reactions? I've finally gotten the nerve to let her know - after all, she is my best friend. I made a pact with myself a few months ago that I would tell her, but everytime I tried, I would either avoid the discussion all together, I'd chicken out.
Seriously, how hard can it be to tell your best friend that you're an anti raw fish person, especially considering that she is too? I agonized over it in my head, almost as if I was two people. Part of me would say "Just go it - it's only 3 little words - I HATE SUSHI", the other would fear what kind of reaction I'd get from her, and not want to go through with it. The feeling of uncertainty is something I've never really had to cope with, and the uncertainty of her reaction scared me. Woudl she stop being my friend, would our relationship suddenly change, WHAT WOULD HAPPEN?!?!?!
So today, I hung out at her house (she needed her computer fixed - it's always nice to find spyware and virus infested hardware, but that's another story, obviously!). I knew this would forever change our dining plans. I had told her yesterday that I needed to talk to her about something important today, so today was the day.
We ran a couple of errands - and on the way back to her place - I know I had to spill the beans. I didn't want this to be any kind of mushy announcement, just simple and to the point.
So, sitting at a red light I looked at her and said "Anna, I dont like sushi, and I just wanted to let you know. You're the first person I've told". I know I had this scared and confused look on my face, awaiting her reaction.
She laughed and asked if this was a joke.
That wasn't one of the reactions I thought she would have. In the days prior to today, I felt like one of those hurricane prediction computers, instead of spitting out multiple ways to obliterate Florida, I was calculating what her response would be - and that wasn't one of them. I was expecing something much more harsh. When I told her I was serious, she told me she was a little surprised, but that we were still cool and that she loved me. The weight had been lifted, and I felt like such an idiot for agonizing over something was really no big deal - I had made an elephant out of an ant.
So, one of my life's major mile markers has past, and I just wanted to let you guys know
Cliffnotes:
- Grab leftover sushi, throw it into the garbage, masterbate
