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I thankyou all for you kind words, I could puts quotes in here, but im afraid the post would be so long it might make fuse talk crash at this point. My mother passed away a 6:50 today, she was ready to go, and she knew that she had lived a faithful life and that when Christ returns, that she will be raised with all those others that are fiathful believers, to be reunited. In my eyes, my mother left for a trip, just a little bit before my dad and I, that trip is not one of distance, but one of time and of glory. I honor her fiath, she was truly devoted, and I only hope that I can be as strong a believer in the truth of the Gosepl of the Living God as she, so that I will be able to see her once more.
Injury, you're absolutley right, it was so nice that my family, and her very close friends had the time we did last night to spend with her. It gave us so much more closure, and will make this easier on all of us. However, it won't make it go away, and I could never let it, to mourn is to show respect. Lola, I felt the same way: first last night IMing a close friend of mine, I was crying to much to talk on the phone...and then today, after reading all of your wonderful messages. She didn't have to suffer terrible pain or anguish, and she got to be surrounded by people who truly always had her best interests at heart.
To all you who've lost someone to cancer, or lost someone period, I'm sorry, and I thank you too for sending your best, as someone who can truly relate. Again, I couldn't quote, and I certainly couldn't address everyone; all is apreciated.
~Vinny
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As many of you may know, my mother has ben fighting liver canacer for over a year now. She's had her good times, once almost went into remision, and her bad times, but right now is by far the worst yet. Two weeks ago friday, my dad told me that she had stopped responding to chemo, and as this had been the fourth different chemo drug the doctors had tried, they didn't give much hope for better results with a fifth drug. Because of my mom's, (and my dad, and my) religous convictions, we opted to discontinue the chemo, to make whatever time my mother had left, a time of peace and as much comfort as possible. The doctors said she had about six months without chemo, and nine at the most with it; well they were apparantley wrong. Which I don't hold against them, they were just doing there job.
Tonight my mother had some type of traumatic interior event. The nurses don't know what it might be, and we decided to keep her at home and just let it play out as it does (mind you, these were her wishes). Her blood pressure was very low as a result of whatever transpired on the inside, and I mean very low (for any of you with medical knowledge, it was 40 over 0). Her blood pressure has improved some, but is stil far to low (60 over 10?, not sure about the second number). She's been able to talk throughout almost the whole thing, which the nurse said was very uncommon for someone with a blood pressure as low as hers, which was very nice, as my dad and I were able to talk with her on and off for almost three hours. There are about eight people at our house right now from our wonderful church, to help out with various necesities, so in about ten minutes I am going to go to sleep.
Her level of consciousness has been amazing for her condition, and has gotten steadily better, about twenty minutes ago, she actually sat up in bed on her own, which was a very good sign. We still don't know if she will make it through the night, and even if she does, she won't be around for much longer afterwards, but I've been praying.
I would like to ask that all of you who read this could say a prayer for her. God is very powerful, and till she breathes her last breath, or for that matter, even afterward, he can still save her to live on in this age. He created us, he can surley fix us when we're broken.
Thankyou Much,
Vinny Leseberg
I thankyou all for you kind words, I could puts quotes in here, but im afraid the post would be so long it might make fuse talk crash at this point. My mother passed away a 6:50 today, she was ready to go, and she knew that she had lived a faithful life and that when Christ returns, that she will be raised with all those others that are fiathful believers, to be reunited. In my eyes, my mother left for a trip, just a little bit before my dad and I, that trip is not one of distance, but one of time and of glory. I honor her fiath, she was truly devoted, and I only hope that I can be as strong a believer in the truth of the Gosepl of the Living God as she, so that I will be able to see her once more.
Injury, you're absolutley right, it was so nice that my family, and her very close friends had the time we did last night to spend with her. It gave us so much more closure, and will make this easier on all of us. However, it won't make it go away, and I could never let it, to mourn is to show respect. Lola, I felt the same way: first last night IMing a close friend of mine, I was crying to much to talk on the phone...and then today, after reading all of your wonderful messages. She didn't have to suffer terrible pain or anguish, and she got to be surrounded by people who truly always had her best interests at heart.
To all you who've lost someone to cancer, or lost someone period, I'm sorry, and I thank you too for sending your best, as someone who can truly relate. Again, I couldn't quote, and I certainly couldn't address everyone; all is apreciated.
~Vinny
/EDIT
As many of you may know, my mother has ben fighting liver canacer for over a year now. She's had her good times, once almost went into remision, and her bad times, but right now is by far the worst yet. Two weeks ago friday, my dad told me that she had stopped responding to chemo, and as this had been the fourth different chemo drug the doctors had tried, they didn't give much hope for better results with a fifth drug. Because of my mom's, (and my dad, and my) religous convictions, we opted to discontinue the chemo, to make whatever time my mother had left, a time of peace and as much comfort as possible. The doctors said she had about six months without chemo, and nine at the most with it; well they were apparantley wrong. Which I don't hold against them, they were just doing there job.
Tonight my mother had some type of traumatic interior event. The nurses don't know what it might be, and we decided to keep her at home and just let it play out as it does (mind you, these were her wishes). Her blood pressure was very low as a result of whatever transpired on the inside, and I mean very low (for any of you with medical knowledge, it was 40 over 0). Her blood pressure has improved some, but is stil far to low (60 over 10?, not sure about the second number). She's been able to talk throughout almost the whole thing, which the nurse said was very uncommon for someone with a blood pressure as low as hers, which was very nice, as my dad and I were able to talk with her on and off for almost three hours. There are about eight people at our house right now from our wonderful church, to help out with various necesities, so in about ten minutes I am going to go to sleep.
Her level of consciousness has been amazing for her condition, and has gotten steadily better, about twenty minutes ago, she actually sat up in bed on her own, which was a very good sign. We still don't know if she will make it through the night, and even if she does, she won't be around for much longer afterwards, but I've been praying.
I would like to ask that all of you who read this could say a prayer for her. God is very powerful, and till she breathes her last breath, or for that matter, even afterward, he can still save her to live on in this age. He created us, he can surley fix us when we're broken.
Thankyou Much,
Vinny Leseberg
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