In the last week or so I came to the realization that I was\am still dealing with my father's death last November. That realization put a lot of my frustration and depression in the last 10 months in new perspective.
He died at 63 from esophageal cancer. He was diagnosed in July and was dead by November. The aggressive chemo and radiation kicked his ass pretty bad and since he had previously lived alone I pretty much moved in with him and did everything for him. Helped him shower, cleaned up his vomit and sh!t, changed bandages, everything.
I was very attached to him, my wife is the only other person in the world I have ever been able to talk to as frankly and sincerely as him.
In a week or so I get my work review. Needless to say from about August to Feb. '05 I was pretty useless (I still did some things, but I ususally have major projects and that was right out). I've been unable to completely engage the last 4-5 months... I'm JUST NOW starting to feel like I'm getting back to my old productivity levels. (As I post this from work
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If you were my manager (and none of them have said ONE WORD to me about my productivity, btw, this is all self-criticism) how long would you give for grief, etc....
He died at 63 from esophageal cancer. He was diagnosed in July and was dead by November. The aggressive chemo and radiation kicked his ass pretty bad and since he had previously lived alone I pretty much moved in with him and did everything for him. Helped him shower, cleaned up his vomit and sh!t, changed bandages, everything.
I was very attached to him, my wife is the only other person in the world I have ever been able to talk to as frankly and sincerely as him.
In a week or so I get my work review. Needless to say from about August to Feb. '05 I was pretty useless (I still did some things, but I ususally have major projects and that was right out). I've been unable to completely engage the last 4-5 months... I'm JUST NOW starting to feel like I'm getting back to my old productivity levels. (As I post this from work
If you were my manager (and none of them have said ONE WORD to me about my productivity, btw, this is all self-criticism) how long would you give for grief, etc....