I broke up with my g/f a few days ago, the suckiness of that's setting in.
Yesterday my land lady started being a douche. Totally unreasonable bullsh1t.
And this morning I make an honest mistake at work (only because someone else fvcked up first and put a job in the "to be worked on area" when it was actually done) and my boss crawled up my @ss.
Man, this sh1t's getting old. I'm looking for a new place to live and working on my resume this weekend.
Hey, at least I have my health right! Fvcking BP is 170 over 100. Ughhh! I need a fvcking Vallium and a shot of whiskey.
That is all.
Update: Man, I'm such a wuss. My ex just called and wants to bring me lunch. I caved and said yes. this aught to prove interesting. I'll update later!
Update 2: So she brought Italian food. I assume it wasn't poisoned. If it was it's the slow acting kind. Anyway, she gave me the whole "I'm not trying to win you back, but...." speil. I held strong though.
Don't get me wrong, a steady (really really nice) piece of a$$ is great and all, but there's only so much drama, doubt, and deciet one man can take.
She had the balls to say "Well this all came out of nowhere, why couldn't you have given me a chance, or at least a warning?". I couldn't help but laugh at this. I said "You mean like when I said on 30 different occasions "Hey, somethings wrong here, we need to work it out or we're just wasting each others time."? Or how about the three times prior to this I said I was leaving you and you just called me up the next day pretending like nothing even happened and I let it be that way, I just let you back in my life.
Or heck, what about how you now say you do want the same things I want, that you always have, yet your actions always spoke differently, 180 degrees differently.
Sheesh, I gave her hint after hint after hint, but the "good stuff" kept luring me back in.
When she left just now she said "Well can I at least hug you?". I said no. When she said why, I told her the truth, "I don't trust myself physically, my body will betray me if I hug you and do things I'll regret later."
Yes, it was cold, but I can't go on unhappy.
She also asked me today if I told anyone about us breaking up, which I haven't. She said "Well someone knows, I can feel it, and I didn't tell anyone.".
Just now she tm's me saying "Well if you didn't tell anyone then why did someone send me this book?"
The dirt on breaking up
Apparently it was in a package waiting for her when she got back to work. Fvcked up I know, but I didn't do it.
I'm telling you guys, this chick is older than me, and it doesn't matter how old they are, they always have that ability to just break down and go immature on you in a heartbeat (sorry Mosh, you're the exception I'm sure
).
:music: One is the lonliest number that you ever knew......:music:
Yesterday my land lady started being a douche. Totally unreasonable bullsh1t.
And this morning I make an honest mistake at work (only because someone else fvcked up first and put a job in the "to be worked on area" when it was actually done) and my boss crawled up my @ss.
Man, this sh1t's getting old. I'm looking for a new place to live and working on my resume this weekend.
Hey, at least I have my health right! Fvcking BP is 170 over 100. Ughhh! I need a fvcking Vallium and a shot of whiskey.
That is all.
Update: Man, I'm such a wuss. My ex just called and wants to bring me lunch. I caved and said yes. this aught to prove interesting. I'll update later!
Update 2: So she brought Italian food. I assume it wasn't poisoned. If it was it's the slow acting kind. Anyway, she gave me the whole "I'm not trying to win you back, but...." speil. I held strong though.
Don't get me wrong, a steady (really really nice) piece of a$$ is great and all, but there's only so much drama, doubt, and deciet one man can take.
She had the balls to say "Well this all came out of nowhere, why couldn't you have given me a chance, or at least a warning?". I couldn't help but laugh at this. I said "You mean like when I said on 30 different occasions "Hey, somethings wrong here, we need to work it out or we're just wasting each others time."? Or how about the three times prior to this I said I was leaving you and you just called me up the next day pretending like nothing even happened and I let it be that way, I just let you back in my life.
Or heck, what about how you now say you do want the same things I want, that you always have, yet your actions always spoke differently, 180 degrees differently.
Sheesh, I gave her hint after hint after hint, but the "good stuff" kept luring me back in.
When she left just now she said "Well can I at least hug you?". I said no. When she said why, I told her the truth, "I don't trust myself physically, my body will betray me if I hug you and do things I'll regret later."
Yes, it was cold, but I can't go on unhappy.
She also asked me today if I told anyone about us breaking up, which I haven't. She said "Well someone knows, I can feel it, and I didn't tell anyone.".
Just now she tm's me saying "Well if you didn't tell anyone then why did someone send me this book?"
The dirt on breaking up
Apparently it was in a package waiting for her when she got back to work. Fvcked up I know, but I didn't do it.
I'm telling you guys, this chick is older than me, and it doesn't matter how old they are, they always have that ability to just break down and go immature on you in a heartbeat (sorry Mosh, you're the exception I'm sure
).:music: One is the lonliest number that you ever knew......:music:
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