'Cutting myself is how I cope'

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Lifer
Jul 16, 2001
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Basically it started off when I was six, with scratching between my fingers.

I would say I'm not typical because I don't do it day in, day out. I'm not covered in lots of little scars but I've got quite a few large ones.

My parents were the start of it. My father was very aggressive. He used his aggression to 'sort us out', me and my brother and sister.


We couldn't fight back, couldn't answer back. I just stored it up and stored it up and my relief was my self harm.

I felt so worthless. I couldn't come out. The shame element - why you can't speak to somebody about it - is so overwhelming.
 

RedCOMET

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Originally posted by: notfred
I just drink.

...in excess. Thats why i do my best not to drink alone. I'm afriad i will end up drinking too much. Already did it twice and it was not good.
 

zanieladie

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Perhaps some counseling will help ya...you can even find information on the internet. Start with "borderline personality disorder"...that may help you pinpoint the problem so that you can begin to learn coping strategies besides self-harm.

Just a suggestion...

Seeing a qualified mental health counselor may really help as well.

Best wishes...