thirtythree
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I posted this a while back but not many people read it and I've made some revisions to it for a scholarship application. it's supposed to be answering the questions "what are you personal plans and goals for the future?" and "what experiences have you had that were particularly significant to you?" I'm just looking for some feedback I suppose. feel free to point out any glaring grammatical errors as well. grazie.
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Sometimes we reach a point in our lives when what has hitherto made sense seems frivolous and absurd. It?s at this point that we have to reflect on where our lives are going and decide how we must change in order for that to be where we want them to be going. Several events over this past year have helped me to realize what is truly important and have brought me closer to a definite plan for the future.
I was raised a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints but have since left the church for personal reasons. Though I believe it instilled many good principles in me, I?ve come to the conclusion that it simply isn?t for me. I?d much rather worry about how my actions affect others than about what's a sin and what isn?t. Some people worry about religion, some about money, and some about fame, but what really matters to me is people. One person in particular has helped me to reach this conclusion. Coincidentally, she is rather religious and hopes to be a famous writer when she?s older. I?m not saying there?s anything wrong with goals like these. I?m simply saying that they aren?t for me.
Over the summer, this girl and I talked for hours almost every night. Needless to say, we got to know each other well. She helped me to become aware of my weaknesses and, more importantly, my strengths. I began to see some good in myself, which is often difficult for me to do. She became very important to me, my reason for living perhaps, but of course, the feelings weren?t mutual; I?m a good friend and that?s all. It was hard for me to accept this at first, and it was hard on me when I finally did, but I'm getting by.
Of course, you probably aren?t terribly interested in my personal life, but like I said, people?and our relations with one another?are what really matter. I?m sure it isn?t healthy to be so dependent upon one person though, so I was searching everywhere for something else to believe in. Through another series of events, I came to the conclusion that I could get by as long as there was someone in the world worth knowing. I have faith in the human race. It?s a bit of a gamble, I know, but I?m convinced that there are still a few good people out there. I guess you might say that this girl, Allison, renewed my faith in humanity.
On a slightly different but definitely related subject, Allison also influenced my decision to pursue a career in psychology. I?ve always been extremely empathetic, and while she was going through some hard times, I wanted nothing more than to help her through them. However, there was really nothing I could do. I?m not saying that I could?ve necessarily done more if I had a Ph.D. in psychology, but I figure if I can make one person's life easier, my own life won?t have been wasted. There will always be people who are going through hard times. There will always be people like me who, if given the choice, would choose to have never existed without thinking twice. That?s a selfish attitude, I know, but I never did say I was the epitome of selflessness. However, I think a move from the computer-oriented career I was decided on before is a step in the right direction.
How about one last twist though? Despite my interest in psychology, even I refuse to go to a psychologist or therapist. I would rather deal with life on my own, in my own way, and will continue to do so in the future. My only hope is that I?ll meet some people along the way who will make it worth the effort.
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Sometimes we reach a point in our lives when what has hitherto made sense seems frivolous and absurd. It?s at this point that we have to reflect on where our lives are going and decide how we must change in order for that to be where we want them to be going. Several events over this past year have helped me to realize what is truly important and have brought me closer to a definite plan for the future.
I was raised a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints but have since left the church for personal reasons. Though I believe it instilled many good principles in me, I?ve come to the conclusion that it simply isn?t for me. I?d much rather worry about how my actions affect others than about what's a sin and what isn?t. Some people worry about religion, some about money, and some about fame, but what really matters to me is people. One person in particular has helped me to reach this conclusion. Coincidentally, she is rather religious and hopes to be a famous writer when she?s older. I?m not saying there?s anything wrong with goals like these. I?m simply saying that they aren?t for me.
Over the summer, this girl and I talked for hours almost every night. Needless to say, we got to know each other well. She helped me to become aware of my weaknesses and, more importantly, my strengths. I began to see some good in myself, which is often difficult for me to do. She became very important to me, my reason for living perhaps, but of course, the feelings weren?t mutual; I?m a good friend and that?s all. It was hard for me to accept this at first, and it was hard on me when I finally did, but I'm getting by.
Of course, you probably aren?t terribly interested in my personal life, but like I said, people?and our relations with one another?are what really matter. I?m sure it isn?t healthy to be so dependent upon one person though, so I was searching everywhere for something else to believe in. Through another series of events, I came to the conclusion that I could get by as long as there was someone in the world worth knowing. I have faith in the human race. It?s a bit of a gamble, I know, but I?m convinced that there are still a few good people out there. I guess you might say that this girl, Allison, renewed my faith in humanity.
On a slightly different but definitely related subject, Allison also influenced my decision to pursue a career in psychology. I?ve always been extremely empathetic, and while she was going through some hard times, I wanted nothing more than to help her through them. However, there was really nothing I could do. I?m not saying that I could?ve necessarily done more if I had a Ph.D. in psychology, but I figure if I can make one person's life easier, my own life won?t have been wasted. There will always be people who are going through hard times. There will always be people like me who, if given the choice, would choose to have never existed without thinking twice. That?s a selfish attitude, I know, but I never did say I was the epitome of selflessness. However, I think a move from the computer-oriented career I was decided on before is a step in the right direction.
How about one last twist though? Despite my interest in psychology, even I refuse to go to a psychologist or therapist. I would rather deal with life on my own, in my own way, and will continue to do so in the future. My only hope is that I?ll meet some people along the way who will make it worth the effort.
