I am fortunate my intelligence separated me so far from the world around me as a young child. If it did not, it would not have bred in me such an intense hate for it. I fear without that, I would not be talking with you today with recognition that pride is the deadliest of all sins.
It's not clear to me in that sentence if the referent for the bolded "it" is "the world around me" or "my intelligence". Either way I don't really grasp the meaning, though it seems like it would be different in each case.
Also, in this post, you seem to have turned into Moonbeam!