By the way I am not only a passionate grower (this includes also things like hot peppers

and as said
I don't smoke "da herb" because of the same reasons you point out, bad experience in the past, but wife likes it for "medicinal reasons" for her anxiety, but I am also a content creator and
"strain description writer" for several well-known European seed banks. All I can say is that some of today's strains seem almost "scary" to me, 25%THC etc...WTF....the last time I smoked was in the...like what...early 80s?

Even my wife who SMOKES.WEED.ALL.THE.FRICKING.TIME...has bad experiences with some strains and gets panic attacks.
You remember what strain gave you the bad experience?