- Feb 26, 2001
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Has anyone taken any meds for depression on ATOT? I think I have a serious chemical problem.
I keep getting irrationally depressed, most the times the feelings are that of hopelessness and unfortuneately thoughts of death just becuase I want it to stop so bad. Yet once I'm out of the "spell" it's as if nothing happened, like I'm completely and totally fine, if a bit shaken up and tired of dealing with the problem, but for the most part I'm fine.
I self medicate with foods I'm alergic to (wheat and rice) untill I feel bad from the alergy to the point where nothing really matters, from there I OD on sleep then start exercising really hard to make sure I don't gain any weight and exit all the toxins I build up from the foods.
This is really not the life I want to go on living though, it's gotten to the point where I can't have a life outside of work because I don't know what I'm going to feel like from day to day. It seems to be happening more frequently now and no matter how hard I fight the problem from a feeling standpoint I just can't win.
I have loads of will power, I don't ever feel sorry for myself, I do everything I can to live an active healthy lifestyle and the problem wont go away.
What should I do to combat this?, it's really taking over my life.
I keep getting irrationally depressed, most the times the feelings are that of hopelessness and unfortuneately thoughts of death just becuase I want it to stop so bad. Yet once I'm out of the "spell" it's as if nothing happened, like I'm completely and totally fine, if a bit shaken up and tired of dealing with the problem, but for the most part I'm fine.
I self medicate with foods I'm alergic to (wheat and rice) untill I feel bad from the alergy to the point where nothing really matters, from there I OD on sleep then start exercising really hard to make sure I don't gain any weight and exit all the toxins I build up from the foods.
This is really not the life I want to go on living though, it's gotten to the point where I can't have a life outside of work because I don't know what I'm going to feel like from day to day. It seems to be happening more frequently now and no matter how hard I fight the problem from a feeling standpoint I just can't win.
I have loads of will power, I don't ever feel sorry for myself, I do everything I can to live an active healthy lifestyle and the problem wont go away.
What should I do to combat this?, it's really taking over my life.