***I edited the post to clarify some points, I really was tired when I wrote it the first time, sorry***
Well, I have a doubt, in March my ex-girlfriend?s cousin died in an accident her cousin was very young and she thought that if she died then, she wouldn?t had live like she would like to (I was her first boyfriend and her parents are rather oppressive). So she enter in a existence crisis, in what eventually she try to dump me, after talk a lot, weeks (2 weeks), we continue being a couple.
The past 24 of July we break-up, the only reason that she gave me was that she doesn?t love me anymore, and wanted to be alone, but we kiss us and everything went fine after that kiss, but we weren?t a couple anymore, after 5 days his sister call me and ask me if we were still couple and I tell her that we aren?t at least that is what it seemed, because she keep sending me SMS, telling me that take care, eat, sleep well, etc. she wanted that we be friends, and we are Latin, so in the SMS she told me too ?Te quiero mucho? that is almost like ?I love you? so, her sister told me that I should to do something because she has another boyfriend (no one than her sister know in her house), that caught me off of guard, and sincerely I couldn?t think on anything neither feel anything beside of deception.
I went the next day to her house to talk, she deny everything but after an hour of talking she accept it and wanted to know who told me, I didn?t tell her, so we kiss each other and pass a very good night cuddling, I know that this is wrong in everyway, she have with this guy 3 weeks and she told me that she loves him and he love her, her sister told me that I was more handsome than him, actually both (my ex and her sister) told me that is a ugly guy, She was my perfect woman and I thought that she was an angel, both in beauty and kindness, so this is a great hit to take.
She keeps sending me SMS telling me the same ?Te quiero mucho? and take care, blah, blah, etc. and sometimes call me by phone to talk like friends like we used to before anything of this happen, but without the cute words when we were a couple, our relationship last about 6 years, she were, till this issue my best friend and vice versa, even before being couple we were best friends. But the point is that every time we see each other, we kiss us like before and have sex, like before and seriously my conscience need like 24 hrs to catch me and instantly loose me again, so I have no remorse of what I do, most time.
I fell nothing the most time, not anger, not a desire of vengeance, if I fell something is sadness and happiness, but is just so little time, that it really doesn?t matter, like a half of hour a day of sadness and another half of happiness, I know nothing, I think that I still love her. I want to talk her and when she send me SMS or call me I feel in calm, I can?t take her back, if she want to come back her ride isn?t here anymore. But I fell bad about losing the friendship and I use to enjoy so much when we had sex and she too, we always said that if for some odd reason we couldn?t married then we were going to be lovers, thing I think we are doing that now, I have no interest in others girls right now, actually I?m afraid of them. I don?t think that it would work if I try with someone, but also I feel that I get stuck and I?m not advancing anymore, I quit to a lot of thing for her and did a world of things for her, and now my life is the one that it was suppose to be with her, but without her, I?m 24 years old, I know that is stupid, but she got her degree because of me, she got trough the university because I help her in everything, she wasn?t smart enough to graduate in engineering, I don?t want to offend anyone, but a lot of people enter and just 10% finish.
Even if the lovers things weren?t happening, so I don?t understand my reaction and my feelings right now, I really have no time to be depressed because I have a lot of work, not much time to think either, I?m a obsessive person, so think is a bad think to do in this case, but I feel good when she contact me or when we see us and do things like before (cuddling, have sex, laugh). What do you think guys and girls? And I posted something in ?Slappy00? thread of ?So my girlfriend of 8.5 years decided to break up on Sunday? if some of you were there.
To summarize, I?m not going to take her back, but she is/was my best friend and she know me better than anyone, I?m worried because feel almost nothing and I think that is bad, I want to know if someone can give an opinion or comment some experience that one of you may have.
Sorry if I didn?t write well, English is not my first language (I learnt it in a public school) neither I use it more than once a month, and always with technical stuff.
Well, I have a doubt, in March my ex-girlfriend?s cousin died in an accident her cousin was very young and she thought that if she died then, she wouldn?t had live like she would like to (I was her first boyfriend and her parents are rather oppressive). So she enter in a existence crisis, in what eventually she try to dump me, after talk a lot, weeks (2 weeks), we continue being a couple.
The past 24 of July we break-up, the only reason that she gave me was that she doesn?t love me anymore, and wanted to be alone, but we kiss us and everything went fine after that kiss, but we weren?t a couple anymore, after 5 days his sister call me and ask me if we were still couple and I tell her that we aren?t at least that is what it seemed, because she keep sending me SMS, telling me that take care, eat, sleep well, etc. she wanted that we be friends, and we are Latin, so in the SMS she told me too ?Te quiero mucho? that is almost like ?I love you? so, her sister told me that I should to do something because she has another boyfriend (no one than her sister know in her house), that caught me off of guard, and sincerely I couldn?t think on anything neither feel anything beside of deception.
I went the next day to her house to talk, she deny everything but after an hour of talking she accept it and wanted to know who told me, I didn?t tell her, so we kiss each other and pass a very good night cuddling, I know that this is wrong in everyway, she have with this guy 3 weeks and she told me that she loves him and he love her, her sister told me that I was more handsome than him, actually both (my ex and her sister) told me that is a ugly guy, She was my perfect woman and I thought that she was an angel, both in beauty and kindness, so this is a great hit to take.
She keeps sending me SMS telling me the same ?Te quiero mucho? and take care, blah, blah, etc. and sometimes call me by phone to talk like friends like we used to before anything of this happen, but without the cute words when we were a couple, our relationship last about 6 years, she were, till this issue my best friend and vice versa, even before being couple we were best friends. But the point is that every time we see each other, we kiss us like before and have sex, like before and seriously my conscience need like 24 hrs to catch me and instantly loose me again, so I have no remorse of what I do, most time.
I fell nothing the most time, not anger, not a desire of vengeance, if I fell something is sadness and happiness, but is just so little time, that it really doesn?t matter, like a half of hour a day of sadness and another half of happiness, I know nothing, I think that I still love her. I want to talk her and when she send me SMS or call me I feel in calm, I can?t take her back, if she want to come back her ride isn?t here anymore. But I fell bad about losing the friendship and I use to enjoy so much when we had sex and she too, we always said that if for some odd reason we couldn?t married then we were going to be lovers, thing I think we are doing that now, I have no interest in others girls right now, actually I?m afraid of them. I don?t think that it would work if I try with someone, but also I feel that I get stuck and I?m not advancing anymore, I quit to a lot of thing for her and did a world of things for her, and now my life is the one that it was suppose to be with her, but without her, I?m 24 years old, I know that is stupid, but she got her degree because of me, she got trough the university because I help her in everything, she wasn?t smart enough to graduate in engineering, I don?t want to offend anyone, but a lot of people enter and just 10% finish.
Even if the lovers things weren?t happening, so I don?t understand my reaction and my feelings right now, I really have no time to be depressed because I have a lot of work, not much time to think either, I?m a obsessive person, so think is a bad think to do in this case, but I feel good when she contact me or when we see us and do things like before (cuddling, have sex, laugh). What do you think guys and girls? And I posted something in ?Slappy00? thread of ?So my girlfriend of 8.5 years decided to break up on Sunday? if some of you were there.
To summarize, I?m not going to take her back, but she is/was my best friend and she know me better than anyone, I?m worried because feel almost nothing and I think that is bad, I want to know if someone can give an opinion or comment some experience that one of you may have.
Sorry if I didn?t write well, English is not my first language (I learnt it in a public school) neither I use it more than once a month, and always with technical stuff.
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