nonlnear: Both. I can imagine paths to a better system, btu I'm not emotionally invested in them like I used to be. They are a curiosity to me and little more. Good for a conversation here and there, but not to be taken any more seriously than a joke, a rumor, or a law.
M: Well it would seem then I have nothing to fear from you since it is the investment of emotion that leads to fanatical belief, it seems to me. You seem to have transcended the need for belief.
n: Hope is an inconvenient sentiment that only leads to despair. I prefer to simply enjoy contentment and joy without worrying about causes so much.
M: Perhaps it is inconvenient because it is a quality of the human heart that we can't, but wish we could escape. I believe that true happiness isn't possible in a world where others suffer as a result of belief in the absurd, hope of political change, for example.
n: Hope for me in the political realm was always tied to a belief in a reasonable chance of sanity emerging.
M: Emerging from what and from where. I would again suggest that sanity is our proper natural and original state, the state we were born in and soon thereafter left. What you seem to have accomplished is at least a not insignificant return to it. We were born present and fully in the now, the place where contentment and joy are in being.
n: I gave that childish foolishness up a while ago and I haven't missed it. It can only lead to despair. Fixating on futures that won't come to pass distracts one from the myriad joys to be had in enjoying the day that is. I'd rather go surfing than opine about Congress.
M: Well I would say that the same detachment from political change can be applied to hope. One can, I think, have it without any hope for hope and no sense of let down. Just as reason seems a proper state for man, so does the ability to have hope and I think that the fact that you can enjoy the moment now speaks to it. You are in a place I would hope others reach and you didn't let me down.
You give me hope.
n: If self loathing is as endemic as it seems to be, perhaps it is wrong to speak of it as an undesirable state. Should man disavow his self-loathing any more than the leopard his spots? Perhaps it's just a consequence of too many neurons for our own good. Just putting that out there for you...
M: I think that it is an undesirable and unnecessary state that can't be disavowed because it has an unconscious motivation, that in short, we want to be asleep, irrational and insane, because to face the truth of our inner condition requires remembering. He who was born in perfection and joy and taught to hate himself suffers the most profound hopelessness a person can feel. Maybe the only folk who will look at themselves, feel what they really feel, are folk who have lost all hope. It is easier to feel how hopeless we feel when we have abandoned all hope. To let go of the rope is to abandon regret and hope. When the past and the future are gone there is only the now.