analyze this one

TechBoyJK

Lifer
Oct 17, 2002
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so i had this dream right... a weird one.. i was out shopping with some girl that had a face that i didnt recognize, but i knew i was in love with her... i dont know how to explain it.. weird i know... but like i had a really bad feeling that something was going to happen... she was waiting in line to check out and i was a few feet away looking at something... i saw some thugs approach her, so i went over to her and they kinda just walked away... they started walking out of the store, so i followed them out because i had a bad feeling... then i remember hearing something, like a crash, and when i came back in i saw a big crowd of people around someone... when i looked at what they were looking at I saw it was the girl i was with..

i dont know who this girl was or what... but i knew i loved her and she loved me.. i felt like it was my wife or something... and when i saw her she was on the ground not moving and i could see blood rushing out from the back of her neck...i dont know how the injury got there but all i remember is flipping out and holding that girl in my arms trying to stop the bleeding... all i know is that the emotion i felt in the dream is unlike anything ive felt before... i just rememeber sitting there covered in blood holding her as i screamed for help.... she was unconcious and i could see her skin getting pale... then all of a sudden... i was sitting there, no blood, nothing, and she was standing up next to some guy, and they walked off like nothing happened as I was sitting there all freaked out... as much as it hurt to see her walk off with someone else, i woke up thinking... so she's not hurt?

the only things i can associate this to is 1. my coworker told me about how his wife almost died in labor during pregnancy and he almost lost her and the baby and he had to sit there freaking out holding her not knowing if she would come through... that and one day at my old apartment complex, i was teaching these two siblings how to play golf out in the grass... while the girl was swinging the club, the boy ran at his sister and the club hit him in the back of the head right behind his ear... hard.. it knocked him out and he fell down immediately.. he starting bleeding badly, and i had to rip off my shirt and tie it around his head to slow the bleeding...

i sat there with him, unconcious, in my arms screaming for help because i was basically covered in blood and i didnt want to move... eventually, another neighbor heard me and called 911... by time the paramedics got there, he wasn't breathing and i couldnt feel a pulse... i basically had some kid die in my arms that i didnt know... fortunately, the paramedics saved him, and after a blood transfusion, he managed to walk out of the hospital w/o lifetime damage... i didnt love the kid before i met him, but i definatley loved him as i was holding him, and up until last night i didnt realize how it would have felt if that was my wife or something that i was holding while she died..