A possible good-bye from RSI

[RSI]

I've lost all will to do anything lately, I really don't know what the hell I'm doing, going to do, and what the hell I'm doing here, seemingly wasting my time... everything seems like a waste of time and an annoyance.

So I don't know if I'm going to continue posting on these forums... It seems I get criticized for doing almost anything, and anything on computers too.. like it's the cause of anything bad that happens ..

anyway i'm sorry to bother you kind peoples with my inane babbling, and I sincerely hope that I've helped at least one or two poeple over the period of time I've been a member at this BBS.. now I'm not saying I'm "leaving for good" or anything - I may - I just really don't know what I'm doing, so don't be surprised if I don't post for a while or at all, I don't know...

In case I don't show up (at all, or for a while), I thank everybody here for.. well, everything.. for being there, for being understanding, enjoyable/funny, etc.. All the people who've been able to help me and thousands of other members, and even some of the nefs that have been fun to have around... GirlFriday, the only female member of this board that I can name off the top of my head and have much respect for.. Red Dawn's always fun to read, and as are most of the elite members, which I think all deserved their elitism (although I honestly don't think titles mean anything - but the people who did get them, got them deservingly).

Anyway... perhaps I'll be back tomorrow, but I'm really discouraged and I don't know if I'll bother doing anything... I have a ton of work lying here, and I feel sickened just looking at it.. and all the other factors/elements of my life that just add up and seem to be placed perfectly to try and break me down...

Sorry if I've annoyed anybody, I'll leave you be now... Good night, hope you all sleep well.

-R....ah, forget it

 

[Viper GTS]

Dude...

Maybe a bad time to bring it up, but you sound exactly like I did a year and a half ago. Ever read up on depression? You sound like you may have a tendency towards it.

Whatever you do, good luck. You're doing pretty fvcking good for your age, even if all you do have is a P83.

G'night, & I hope things look a little better for you in the morning. They usually do. Good luck.

Viper GTS

 

[ltk007]

RSI- I enjoyed your inane babbling and only poked fun at you cause of ass lighting (oh come on, that was funny admit it). Its up to you whether you leave or not, but I'd just like to say that you would be missed by at least one person. If you do quit, stop by neochat every now and then (I should take my own advice) and say hi.

 

[Mr.IncrediblyBored]

Don't go

Edit: At least take me with you

 

[RSI]

Yeah, the Ass Lightning was funny the first time... the 15000x after that it sucked though - but anyway, I don't care... That really didn't bother me at all, I don't mind you acting like an immature little jerk - I've seen you around for a while, so I kind of know you better than that, and I've also seen alot of your better posts, so I know there's that side of you.

thanks for the replies... By the way, Viper GTS... I know what you're talking about and I agree... Usually things do get better in the morning, but my life is a garbage cycle, it just repeats and days end the same... And sometimes in mornings it is still crap, which really sucks.

Well... later..

 

[vi edit]

Hey man, just hop off the computer for a while, go out for a nice walk and enjoy the fresh air. Well, at least here in CR it's pretty damn nice outside.

Just remember that we're always here for ya!

Josh -vi

 

[AMDJunkie]

Dude, life is a garbage cycle for everyone, you just have to wait for someone to pick up the trash.

 

[vi edit]

RSI, if you want to talk about anything sometime, just PM or AIM me at "vi edit"

Josh - vi

 

[RSI]

vi_edit.. yeah, sometimes just a nice walk helps... but I am too discouraged to even want to do that... I'll think about it later...

AMD Junkie.. LOL... Thanks, that was funny...

 

[ltk007]

Junkie said exactly what I was thinking in such an eloquint (sp?) way.

You're not alone and you should talk about it every now and then, get things off your chest. I think one quote from Drew Carey sums it up best (ok I'll probably butcher it but...)

[life sucks...] "There's a support group for that. Its called everybody, they meet at the bar."

 

[Ornery]

Do what's right for you, but you sure never bothered me at all!

Would you mind discussing this further? I suspect we're not getting the whole story...

 

[RSI]

Thanks, I added you.. I've got ICQ, AIM and MSN... ICQ is the one I usually use most, but I'm talking to GF over AIM (ICQ's no good for her), so I may as well use it to talk to you too..

well I might be on a little longer tonight, I don't know, I should go to bed soon

 

[Yeeny]

Aww, shucks, thanks Marc, that was sweet. (see, I can spell it right) You are one of my favorite people here, and I hope you don't stay away too long. I am even correcting my grammar for this post, that should mean something....

Anyways, we all get down and have hard times, its a part of life. But just remember you have friends, and you will make it through.

 

[RSI]

Ornery,

As usual, you're correct... Stupid bastard, be wrong for once! JK... Of course you're not getting the full story... There's quite a bit to it actually, and the thing is, it just all adds up, with bad timing, and results in this... But I don't want to spill it all out on here, a public forum, which people I know may read it, which wouldn't be good.

I'd be glad to talk to some of you individually, seperately about things, but I don't think I'll be spilling out too much detail like this.

Perhaps I'm being paranoid, but I don't care, better safe than made fun of.

 

[RSI]

GirlFriday,

Thanks... I appreciate it, and I wish people I knew in real life could be like you. Thanks for being there, and being so kind and understanding.

I think I am going to have to spend much less time on the computer, which will be a hard thing to do, but I will have to try. I am going to have to help out around the house more as well, as my mother is taking some courses and really needs to put in alot of studying (30+ hours some weeks), and she's constantly picking up around the house, doing dishes, sweeping, doing this and that, and it is really depriving her of the ability to put in the time on homework that she needs to. On top of that, my father's gone on a week long trip to Toronto (work training), so there's even less getting done (brother and sister do very little - as do I, currently).

Also, there's a situation with school which really pisses me off, which I won't go into detail with. But I really want that to stop/get sorted out, or I'm going to go insane, I need to do well and get my work done. :|

 

[BA]

You sound like me over the past year or so. You can talk to me if you want, but you're probably are better getting up and out. I always feel a lot better after a good game of soccer or football, or doing some lifting.

 

[Ultima]

I've been there, and worse

I never told you anandtechers what **** I've done, mainly because none of you would care anyways

No, no drug or alcohol abuse, but I did a very stupid thing while drunk.. let's leave it at that shall we?

 

[AMDJunkie]

Sounds like you need to get your priorities straightened out. Drop AT and anything else that distracts you from helping your mom. She needs it desperatly it seems, and when this streesful period goes you can relax and enjoy the fruits of your labor. Just don't carry the world upon your shoulders and you should be alright.

 

[PCAddict]

I hope everything works out for you and that you do come back here from time to time, if you end up discontinuing your daily activities here.

 

[RSI]

Thanks, that's a more valuable post than you think..

 

[RSI]

Yeah, I manage to keep a very high post average, and I honestly don't know how... It doesn't seem to take up much time, but I guess it just flies by.

Well, I'll see how things go tomorrow... I think I'll try to prevent myself from coming here, and using the computer too much, for the sake of.. well, everything.

 

[Jonny]

O come on Marc, you know you will stay. You love us all too much, and anyways, once you get your new processor/mb/...well...umm..er. new computer, you will be over here braggin about it.

Funny how we all know your specs off by heart isn't it? And your move from you 486 to your k6 which performs like sh!t also, that never failed to entertain me.

See ya in the morning marc.

 

[Impact55]

Keep it real.

 

[dennilfloss]

Bonne chance Marc.

Passemoélapuck (Les Colocs)

 

[Gizmology]

RSI,

Take care of yourself man.

-Giz